And not for the obvious reasons,
Not because of its tribalism
I understand tribalism
& not because of the red-white & blue clashing color scheme
I love mixing contrasting colors
I love wearing the flag as underwear just to make a statement.
I hate the fourth because of its expectations,
because the sun rises after nightfall
because the cloudy night means rain
because it unrolls in front of you without asking
because it wants you to be its slave
to light the sparkler & be glad you’re free
& I love freedom god I do but I love reflection.
& there is not a whiff among the gunpowder
This mirrorless holiday posits nothing to take with me
into the next day
Expands nothing within me
to remember the dead, this limp shrimp,
left out too long
for the party guests, when the
cocktail sauce has been licked clean, like rubber rimming
the glass rim in a prayerful way to get anything out of it.
For the first time in weeks my head has unbuckled
Its contents which are strewn before me
like Christmas Morning toys that need assembly.
I say I said it because I said I said it it but it was
my head, oh my head dead dead dead my head, it was lead lead lead it was
I could not create any two images that did not belong
In a song together: or Thomas Kincade painting and any living room
Or like wood and a leg, like Corona and lime – see what I mean?
Unable to sew together any two unlike thoughts, reverse polarized
Magnets like the polar ice of north and south – only reversed
So they would repel rather than attract.
The day is a broken bicylce with deflated wheels, with crying rims, with
A rusted pick comb chain that can squeeze oil out of thick air and cure
Boils that are a sure sign of the end of the world.
Which will explode like those fucking fireworks, those decimal points
Of noise that scratches at every square inch of quiet exclaiming,
“You know the drill,
don’t be such a kill joy.”
And not for the obvious reasons,
Not because of its tribalism
I understand tribalism
& not because of the red-white & blue clashing color scheme
I love mixing contrasting colors
I love wearing the flag as underwear just to make a statement.
I hate the fourth because of its expectations,
because the sun rises after nightfall
because the cloudy night means rain
because it unrolls in front of you without asking
because it wants you to be its slave
to light the sparkler & be glad you’re free
& I love freedom god I do but I love reflection.
& there is not a whiff among the gunpowder
This mirrorless holiday posits nothing to take with me
into the next day
Expands nothing within me
to remember the dead, this limp shrimp,
left out too long
for the party guests, when the
cocktail sauce has been licked clean, like rubber rimming
the glass rim in a prayerful way to get anything out of it.
For the first time in weeks my head has unbuckled
Its contents which are strewn before me
like Christmas Morning toys that need assembly.
I say I said it because I said I said it it but it was
my head, oh my head dead dead dead my head, it was lead lead lead it was
I could not create any two images that did not belong
In a song together: or Thomas Kincade painting and any living room
Or like wood and a leg, like Corona and lime – see what I mean?
Unable to sew together any two unlike thoughts, reverse polarized
Magnets like the polar ice of north and south – only reversed
So they would repel rather than attract.
The day is a broken bicylce with deflated wheels, with crying rims, with
A rusted pick comb chain that can squeeze oil out of thick air and cure
Boils that are a sure sign of the end of the world.
Which will explode like those fucking fireworks, those decimal points
Of noise that scratches at every square inch of quiet exclaiming,
“You know the drill,
don’t be such a kill joy.”